Cry Baby

Cry Baby

October 26, 2012

            I feel like everyone around me is either getting married or is pregnant. I’ve been that bride-to-be and I am not taking away from that. So, maybe I am just bitter about the baby part. I am only twenty three, so I shouldn’t be rushing things at this point, but I do have baby fever. I have been with my husband for five years, four of which we have been married and he is thirty six. I have three younger brothers and a younger sister, so I am use to little kids. I would like to add that I am not an aunt either, which I am very happy about considering two of my brothers are incredibly immature, the other is only fifteen and my sister just so happens to be sixteen and not pregnant!

            Why is it that there becomes a timer with women and having kids? And it seems to tick more and more louder when you get married. It isn’t like I am not capable of having a child, that I know of anyways. It is just that I am working full time at Target, a job I mostly loathe than love as well as going to school full time. Financially, we are not ready for a baby. I want to be done with school at least for a year, to give me and my husband some time together before even thinking about bringing a miniature Juliano into the mix. The other wrench in it all is my health. I am type one diabetic and need to ensure I am fully healthy to carry a baby.

            So, again, why am I complaining? Well, it is because no matter which way I lay it out to you(or to me for that matter), the urge and want for a baby is still there. We have a two year old English Bulldog, who is still very much puppy, so he occupies my time in between. I also have a cousin who has two little boys, Nino- who is four and Gabe- who is one. I love spending time with them every chance I get.

           

            I really guess there was no point for this, but I needed time to vent a little. So thank you for listening! Ha!

Til next time…

Chasity